frustrating

It’s getting really frustrating now.

Every time I feel my phone vibrates, I feel nothing anymore but disappointment. Why? Because every time I unlock that phone.. I expect it to be you. Now it’s not even that! It’s more like me desperately hoping that I’ll see your name pop up on my screen. Instead it’s someone else who I probably haven’t spoken to. Or maybe even an ex. Or someone I honestly don’t give two fucks for. One way or another I’m left just sitting here like an idiot with a worn out smile. You don’t even take the time of day to reply anymore. At least tell me you’re leaving so I’m not sitting here like an eager puppy waiting for when you would “grace” me with your presence. I feel pathetic. It’s gotten to the point that I just turn it off. No more disappointment. But you know what’s even more sad? When I turn it on, expecting to see a message or hell even a missed call from you.

But I come back to an empty inbox. I check, double check, if maybe I didn’t send a message. Maybe I said something to upset you. Maybe I’m already making you lose interest.. I feel like an idiot and I’m about ready to give up.. or maybe I’m there already. I better start taking my own advice, no expectations no disappointment.

waiting

Waiting. Everyone gets tired of waiting. Whether is waiting for something good to happen or something new. We either wait for that one phone call that can possibly change our mood, or that one text message that can possibly make us smile, etc. Mainly the reason why we wait is because we expect something better is gonna happen later on. Sadly, the outcome isn’t going to turn out the way you expect it to be. Expect the unexpected.

i wish we were like this

i wish we were like this . 

i love hugs .

I LOVE HUGS. Not one of those “It’s nice to see you again, I‘ve really missed you” type of hugs or those “Goodbye for now” type of hugs, but an actual hug. The ones where each person has two arms wrapped around the other person’s body, holding on tight enough so no one feels the need to let go. The ones that last for more than a couple of seconds so you can rest your head on the other person’s shoulder for a while. Not the one armed hugs that need to be rushed so they could give a hug to the next person waiting to be hugged. The hugs where you don’t have to say anything because in that moment we just click when we’re holding onto each other. Hugs that make you feel like the world is slowing down just for you and everything is going to be okay. It’s not just a hug anymore, it becomes something much more than that. One simple gesture had the power to motivate you and make you stronger. Hugs like these are rare since you’re not exactly sure when you’re going to receive another one again. Giving you every possible reason to cherish the moment and make it last.

There’s no such thing as love at first sight .

There’s no such thing as love at first sight.

When you see someone for the first time, you don’t fall in love with them. You don’t even like them, you just lust them. You fall in love with the idea of being with them, but not actually them. You don’t just fall in love with someone that quick. Love is something you gain through time and through experience with someone. 

The problem is, the word love is thrown around like it’s nothing. It has lost its meaning. You can’t fall in love with someone quickly, you just lust them. When the time does come and you genuinely love them. You’ll know, you’ll feel great and you’ll experience something truly remarkable. 

look at me now

sick of being taken advantage of . sick of drama . sick of school . sick of bitches & assholes .

sick of EVERYTHING . 

You faggots scared cause I'm too wild, been here for a while 

I was like f-ck trial I puts it down 

I'm so young money if you got eyes look at me now bitch 

-Look at my now ; Chris Brown . 


Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. You have to know that you're a good person and a good friend. What's meant to be will end up good and what's not, wont. Love is worth fighting for, but sometimes you cant be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don't, you just have to move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you. Hopefully, people realize great things when they come around and don't lose something real. Always fight, until you can't anymore, and then be fought for . ♥

you have to willing to be happy about nothing .

Everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together . 

Everything is okay in the end, if it's not okay, then it's not the end . 

New Chapter

shit happens, we move on . 

life's not perfect but neither are we .

So live life to the fullest, not caring about what people say or think about us, cuz by the end of the day, we're still living our lives . 

live life with no regrets cause if u keep looking back, you have nothing to look forward to .

06/05/11;

elementary school reunion ~ :)

saw so many old friends, gaaah so many of them changed so much >W< ..while some stayed the same xD
- played a scavenger hunt game with SS and guessed all the answers, but in the end we won LMAO , dont know how that happen ~ xD 

love these girls 

07/05/11;

Chilled at Vieux-Port with EM, EK, JT & JL 

and yeaaah thats about it 

LOL~

♥

a dream is a wish your heart makes when your fast asleep.

gaaaaaaaaaaah . so stressed . so much school work and drama going on >W< 
wish it could all gooo away~ 
(and come back another day, LOL JKS . LEAVE AND NEVER COME BAACK . )
why does school exist ?
to torture us . 
yeaaaaaah, CLEARLY . -___________-


OH OH OH and whats with boys these days ? --' 
telling me that you'll do anything to get a girl back, yet you call her a slut & a whore . dude, i dont think thats gonna help you with getting her back . don't complain to me if your gonna act like an asshole, kay? kay thanks .


xox,
lilylai ♥